“hope is being able to see that there is light despite all of the darkness”

~Desmond Tutu

The last few years of our life have not been easy.  I wish it was all puppies and rainbows and unicorns.  But it’s not.  It has been at times absolutely crushing. The weight of our loss so deep and so penetrating.  This darkness will be with us forever.  You can not escape it anymore than you can escape the sun setting.  You can choose to fear the darkness. To let it overwhelm you.  Or you can look for the stars.  You can take what has happened and learn from it.  Let it force you into action.  You can choose hope. It’s always a delicate balance.  And I never want to minimize anyone else’s struggle—or my own for that matter– with finding the light. It is not easy.  But there are moments you have to make a choice as a matter of self-preservation.  To protect your heart, your soul.  Today I choose the light. I have to choose hope.

If you’d like to read more about my feelings on both dark and light, you can look back at last year’s project. I went into much more detail.  But I don’t have that in me today.