After our daughter, Zoey, was diagnosed with Trisomy 18 while I was pregnant, I started writing posts on Caring Bridge to keep everyone up to date. After she passed, I felt like I still wanted to keep writing, but that Caring Bridge was no longer the right place for me. I’ve decided to try this blog site. Writing keeps me slightly more sane and helps me work though the wide range of feelings and emotions that I’ve been feeling this past year. And maybe some other mom will stumble upon it and know that she’s not alone. That the roller coaster is normal. And more importantly, that it is worth it. Zoey was worth it. I may have only held her in my arms for 3 months and 27 days, but she holds my heart forever. She’s worth the pain.
I’ve also decided to take part in something called Capture Your Grief. The idea is to take a picture and write something every day during the month of October. October is a month of awareness and remembrance for infant and child loss. If you’re interested in learning more abut the project or seeing the 31 topics, please visit carlymarieprojectheal.com It seems like the right way for me to start writing in the blog and to give me a place to express how I feel over the next 31 days.
Day 1 is Sunrise. I’ll see you tomorrow.